Weird dream

Have you ever had a dream that feels so real you carry emotions over into your waking moments? Well, since The Boy and I have been together, I KNOW I do because he has to wake me from them. Sometimes my dreams are scary and in them, I scream. Only thing is, I'm actually screaming in real life and scaring the crap out of The Boy who was sleeping soundly at my side until that moment. This has happened on numerous occasions in our years together. Another thing that I do in my sleep is cry. I know, I'm a weirdo, but I am an emotional person so why not be emotional in my dreams too right? For the record, I don't do this every night....or even a few nights a week. I would guesstimate that there is one night every few months when I behave like a moron in my sleep. Last night was one of them.

Back Story: The Boy and I have, in the past, discussed our feelings regarding cheating. Since we have an enormous amount of respect for each other, we have come to the conclusion that if either one of us gets the urge to cheat, we need to do one of two things.... re evaluate our relationship and make changes in order to ensure everyone's needs are being met or break up. I know that it's not always this cut and dry, but in our la la land, we like to think that we could stick to this is, if for some terrible reason either one us felt the urge to stray.

So last night I had a dream that The Boy dumped me. It started with one of my childhood friends and I in her car driving through the neighborhood I grew up in. I was riding shotgun, telling her that he left me. She said that we should drive by his house and I should tak to him. Only his house wasn't really his house (you know how that happens in dreams?) Anyway when I get there, he is being a major dick to me. Just plain old mean. His attitude reminded me a lot of an ex boy who really did turn into a mean jerk in the end. BTW, The Boy is not at all like this in real life. Anyway, he tells me that he "told most people specific reasons why I left you." He goes on to explain that they include my lack of cleaning the loft bathroom (in real life, we have no loft and therefore no loft bathroom and in fact, I am the only one who cleans the 2 bathrooms we do have. lol) He continues to tell me that another reason he left is that even though my favorite T shirt has the phrase "Let it Be" on the front, I never let anything be (FYI- I do not own said t shirt.) But in reality (you know, "dream reality") I knew that the real reason he left me was because he wanted to have sex with someone else. That someone else was not specified, but the thought itself had hurt me so much that I was crying hysterically. I even begged him not to leave. And then, there I was in my bed, sobbing hysterically into The Boy's shoulder while he assured me he wasn't actually going anywhere and that we do not have a loft. haha. I guess I talk in my sleep too.

Anyway, I guess the moral of his story is two fold. Moral number 1: I tend to think that I am a strong woman. I have always felt as though, if things did not work out in my relationship, I would survive and be tough. And then I found myself faced with this dilemma in my dream and I learned that I never ever want to part with the love of my life and if, for some reason, I didn't clean the loft bathroom and he did leave, I would cry like a crazy woman. Moral number 2: Never keep secrets from someone you share a bed with. You never know what the hell you might say in your sleep!