Thoughts....

I have been so bored at work lately. My boss has been traveling and, although I'm sure I could find something to do, I have chosen to surf the internet. I have found that, contrary to popular belief, there is only so much time you can spend web surfing. Thank god it's Friday and we get out early (summer hours yeah!!) I've had some things randomly floating through my brain lately so I thought I'd just jot them down.

1. I am not voting in this year's presidential election and that really bothers me. For the first time in my adult life, I have taken the time to really research the candidates and their platforms and am just plain old disappointed. While they each have some points that I can get behind, I'm not convinced that either one of them can acheive any of the goals they speak of. Plus, I don't really think I like either of them as a person. Another thing I find increasingly aggravating are these women that sit near me at work that are all about Obama. All I hear about is Obama. One has an "Obama is my Homeboy" tote bag. I should specify that they are black women. I like them both very much and was more than a little disappointed at the start of the Hillary vs. Obama thing when they jumped on the Obama bandwagon for no other reason then "he's a black man and we will support any black person that runs." I couldn't believe I really heard these words from women I had always found to be intelligent. I pressed on with questions pertaining specifically to his platform and was told by one of them "I like him because he stands for change." okay, I asked "which changes specifically?" "Just Change overall." I had to assume that she saw a few commercials with his "Change" tagline and decided that was enough for her. Support him because you believe in what he wants to do for our country. Support him because you believe he can follow through with his Healthcare changes, for example. But PLEASE do not vote for him because he is the same color as you!!! And that goes for people voting for McCain just because he is white. I have heard it all this election season!

2. As you know, The Boy and I now have a place on hold for a wedding in the Fall of 09. You may also remember that this is the second time we have had a location on hold. During previous discussions we have talked about what works best in terms of length of engagement. We decided that we would need at least a year to plan a wedding and save up the appropriate money. Now, if he plans on us having a wedding on the date held, that gives him approximately 3 months to propose. When I realized this yesterday, I threw up in my mouth a little. I'm scared. I don't really think it's coming. I don't want to have to cancel ANOTHER held date. A date he suggested we hold to begin with!! At the beginning of this year I made a secret deal with myself. If he wasn't acting by the January 1, 2009, I was going to re-evaluate the situation and decide if maybe we are just not on the same page in life. I know a lot of girls give their men ultimatums, but I don't believe in that. I want him to propose because he wants to, not because I forced him. That being said, if he just says he wants to get married but has no real intention of making that happen, maybe I need to re think this all. I love him, but I do not want to spend the next 5 years waiting for him to be ready only to find out he will never be. I mean, we have been living together for over 3 years. By now, don't you have an idea? Anyway, I am keeping my fingers crossed, but am very worried. I do not want to leave him, but I also do not want to be strung along forever. 4 years together.... there should be a next step. He confuses me so much. He wants to have kids as soon as he is done with grad school (3 years) but we're not married and he knows that I want to do this the traditional way. His parents were never married and had 3 kids together before they split. While my parents were married, but only after I was born. I want to try to be a little different. Okay now I'm just babbling. In short, I'm nervous that I will be forced to make a drastic decision.

3. I recently stumbled across these videos and was shocked!!!! Has anyone ever heard of Burundanga?

4. I absolutely CANNOT wait to get to Jamaica. 3 weeks from today I will be on a plane to paradise. I need a solid week melted to a lounge chair with a frozen drink to really decompress.
This is the hotel we'll be staying at. I am counting down the minutes!!!

Have a great weekend everyone.