Birthday stuff

Today is my birthday and I have to say, it's not nearly as bad a day as I had been expecting. Like I said before, with all the personal stuff going on, I really wasn't feeling this birthday but it turned out to be a pretty good day. I woke up early and hung out with TB. He made a pot of coffee and gave me a little gift. I've been wearing the same ratty old college hoodie sweatshirt (aren't they the best that way?) since I was still in school and I've been saying how I need a new one so he bought me two new ones! Goooo employee bookstore discount. That bookstore over charges like a mother. That's why I never bought a new one for myself lol. I love them!!

We celebrated my birthday Saturday night so there was not much to do today. We went out to dinner at our favorite place in the village and then on to my surprise dress wearing occasion. It was the Opera, which I had suspected and loved! I have been wanting to go to the Met to see the opera for years and years. Madama Butterfly. Honestly, we were dozing off for the entire first act, but it got wayy better for the second and third acts. All in all it was a good night. Nice company and I got to get all dressed up!!

The Boy has been on his best behavior lately. It's been nice and all, but deep down it just kind of makes me mad. He is back to talking about our future and how much he loves me. He even said something about me being stuck with him for life whether I like it or not. That, to me, means he is over whatever he was going through. I know I should be ecstatic, but instead I'm kind of annoyed. I mean, seriously? You break my heart telling me that you "don't know" if you can be with me and a month and a half later everything is hunky dory and I'm supposed to pretend I'm not affected? Truth is, I'm very affected. I left wondering if I really want to marry someone one day that spent 4 years living with me only to be unsure of what he wanted to do next. It left such a bad taste in my mouth that I'm worried I will never recover. He really kind of ruined all this for me. Maybe it will pass.....I hope so much that it will pass and I can go back to being cloud nine happy again.

On a happier note, the girls at work just had a birthday cake for me. Yay! They have definitely made my day. I even got to blow out the candles. It was a strawberry shortcake from my favorite place in the city. Absolutely delish. As a matter of fact, I'm going for seconds!